New Years resolutions are not my jam. As hard as I try to keep goals and stay consistent throughout the year, I’m ultimately going to fail in some respect and try something new. This is coming from the woman who can’t hold down a planner for an entire year without 1.) losing it 2.) forgetting to update and use it 3.) wondering why I decided I had a need for a planner to begin with.
Last year I set 6 goals for myself and much to by surprise I saw most of them through. The 2017 goals were behaviors, action items and intentions I set for myself that I knew I could follow through on. Be present was #1 for a reason. I, just like everyone else, can become too consumed with social media and the world around me that I forget the most important people are right in front of me. I had intent to be present with my family and children, more so than my phone. And it worked! I wanted to do something similar for this year because let’s face it, I still have room to improve on some of those 2017 goals.
My 2018 goals and intentions are…
Staying authentic to me.
I’m not the only one that struggles with social media and self confidence. I found myself forcing my way out this year. It became a numbers game that I wasn’t willing to play anymore because it was sacrificing my happiness and my time with Adam and the girls. I also realized that you’re gonna love me or hate me and I’d rather stay true to who I am and have fewer followers and lovers than turning myself into someone I’m not. It’s a struggle because I’m competitive by nature and want to be the best (a slight control freak) so when the blog isn’t going my way or the way I intend for it to be, I grasp at anything to make a change and that’s not always the best solution. For 2018 this means I may take more periodic breaks from blogging and social media. It’s great to recharge and have social media silence from time to time.
Continuing on my journey of patience.
Being a mother tests my patience every. single. second. Just today Quinn was climbing up on the coffee table while Ava was trying to push her off. I mean…what’s a mom to do! I lose my cool when the girls act up and in those moments I don’t feel like the greatest mom. I’ve realized that not only do I need to have more patience as a parent but I need to give myself more grace on a daily basis. 2017 was a struggle to find patience most days but what I found that helped was actively working out and/or yoga. I want to try meditating more this year to practice my patience in a different way. Also, I just need to relax and let go of the control I feel the need to have. I’m too controlling and Type A to let it go too easily, but it can be done!
My #1 struggle as a human is saying yes and reaching outside of my comfort zone. I’m an introvert to the core and I realize it can have an effect on my girls. Ava is so outgoing, personable and has a contagious energy about her. I worry that my need to stay home could hold her back from being more social. We signed her up for 2 months of swim lessons and it’s forced me to have to talk to other parents. We’re not planning play dates any time soon but I’m making baby steps to get out of my comfort zone.
These are the 3 main goals I’ve set for myself. On top of that I’m trying a healthier approach to eating, holding to a consistent workout regimen and forcing myself to use a planner. That dang planner WILL get used this year! I’m tried of Adam cracking jokes about all my blank planner pages. 2018 is the year!